I found myself after I was already broken. I don't know the person I was before, I never did, so I can't miss her, and I'm glad that is so. I also don't know if there was ever a time in life I wasn't broken, I've always just kind of existed. But now I know who I am as an individual and nothing can take that away from me, even if I lose sight of it from time to time. It doesn't make me a happier person, just less lost. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one that knows my place and everyone else is just lost. But it's all I have, all that I can be certain of. I wish everyone had a sense of self that didn't depend on someone else or something else. No job or location or person in your life can define you. You are your thoughts, dreams, and ambitions and for better or worse your past is part of what shapes that. Own who you are and if there's something you don't like, change it. You're the only one who can.